.Denim.girl.

now i'm all alone stuck in the office
and the rhythm of heavy rain drops make me feel so restless

i miss my bed and how i wish i could hug my smelly bolster to sleep now...


zzZZZzzz

Yesterday after work, meet meow meow and stef...
for stef, haven't been seeing for more than 3 years
and finally we catch some time and meet up

it was really a fun session with them.. lotsa lotsa of oldies chats
and IT WAS FUN!

anyway a guy came up to us with a survey
with a question on it: Do you have dreams?

My first thought was and it just pop out from my mouth asking the guy:
Erm... the dreams you meant is 'NIGHT DREAMS' or 'DREAAAMMMMSSS'?

we laugh our ass out at the point of the time.. HAHAHA

hope to meet them up soon... :) miss them...

oh ya we can actually chat chat chat from 7.30pm till 12.30am.. LOL!!
reminisce reminisce...

It's been quite a long time since I had my last post.
Yet, today I had a strong feel to come back this blog and say my heartfelt words.
I realize that I had learnt a lesson today after working in the design firm for 2 weeks.

The position I'm in this firm is a 3D designer.
3D to me in TP is such an easy job, we design, we create, we draw
everything is our own self.
However, working in the firm isn't it much like the old past in school.
just on Monday, a guy call Alan came to our firm and ask me to draw 3D for him.
I thought was an easy job.
However, realizing that he only gave such minor details and just a floor plan.
He expect you to come out with good and realistic 3D design.
Gosh, I hit my head to the wall.

The deadline was on Saturday
and just yesterday I rushed through the drafts for him.
He wanted the living room, dining room, bedroom and master bedroom.
I was all stressed out to find out that my com is in a bad condition for rendering.
Moreover, errors keep popping out, babies at home keep crying.
All these made me wanna shout.
Thus, my bf bring me out during night to Malaysia for supper.
A supper like this would make my heart beats slower and feel calmer.

Again, storms starts to strike in.
I emailed Alan the drafts and what he replied made a great obstruction for me to move on.
Here's his reply:
Can i know wat softwares you are using for these drawing now, because your drawing cannot convince my client, I just wonder can the drawing be like what i have given you as an example because i find your drawing a little bit funny, seems like cartoon drawing.

A reply like this make me stop moving for almost 2 mins.
My heart beats faster, adrenaline is squeezing and even the thought of quitting this job came in.
I breathe for a moment.
I ran through my drawings realizing I need to work it out.
Suddenly, this thought came into my mind.
If we can't take criticisms, how will we improve?
Everybody has a start, they start off with bad and negative stuffs?
If someone was to give them a thrashing about their work, and their mindsets become like me. Everybody will be jobless.
I may start off with shit 3D designs, but as days passed by I'll learnt from the criticisms.
Once i taken ALL the criticisms, that is the day i'll start to soar and fly.